An emotional day for me. An emotional time. No matter how deep I bury it, it is something that I will always remember and never be able to forget.
It sounded next to impossible just a year ago, that one day i'll be able to move on, but I managed. I'm grateful for that.
God, please forgive me.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Grey's Anatomy
I can not believe I have never watched Grey's Anatomy before but I've been hooked to it for the past couple of months. It literally makes me cry and as far as I can remember, I haven't cried for any TV Series ever since the last episode of The O.C.
Yeah I'm sappy like that.
Yeah I'm sappy like that.
Friday, September 10, 2010
Event Of The Day: Update
So today I got the call from the napkin guy. He sounded quite weird on the phone, I said I gave my phone number because I wanted to thank properly for his compliment. Turns out, he was a Brazilian who was in the town to watch the FIBA basketball games. Coming from the other side of the ocean for the games! Anyway, he suggested we should meet and have a dinner in the same place I was at yesterday. Said, thank you for the invite but I'll pass and that it wasn't really my thing to meet with strangers whom I basically don't know at all. He was like "Yeah thought we could just chat, have a dinner and if you don't want to you can just leave after an hour so." Sounded too much like someone who was looking for a one night stand. I just said thanks and enjoy the city and hung up. Duh.
I did that once but the situation was entirely different. No one can be like my surprise.
I did that once but the situation was entirely different. No one can be like my surprise.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Event Of The Day
This was a first.
So as today being a holiday, decided to visit my dear cousin in downtown for a brunch. So he, his best friend and I had this lovely brunch and then went to Tunel for a cup of coffee. Everything is just normal till here.
We were playing around with his new camera taking silly photos of each other and having a laugh. Just another normal day. Right across the cafe we were sitting there was another group of people sitting in another cafe, whom we barely noticed. The barely noticed part is because one of them owned this huge camera and was taking pictures. And I was like "Doesn't everyone own one of these these days?" That's the barely noticed part.
What is weird about this abnormally normal story up until now is, an hour or so later, one of the men approached our table, put a napkin right in front of me and said "please don't ask any questions and read this and don't get me wrong, thank you." or something like that. I was way too baffled to actually register what he said.
Anyway, we open the napkin and here's what it says:
Isn't it just hilarious?!
So just for the fun of it, I called the hotel to ask for the room and the receptionist said he was out for the US - Russia basketball game but he informed them for my call. Talk about confidence! And I said I have no messages. But then decided to call again a couple of minutes ago and give my name and number. Curiosity kills the cat! I have no intention, I barely remember the face but I'm just wondering what he has to say. That's about it.
That doesn't make me a necessarily bad person now, does it? All for the fun of it!
So as today being a holiday, decided to visit my dear cousin in downtown for a brunch. So he, his best friend and I had this lovely brunch and then went to Tunel for a cup of coffee. Everything is just normal till here.
We were playing around with his new camera taking silly photos of each other and having a laugh. Just another normal day. Right across the cafe we were sitting there was another group of people sitting in another cafe, whom we barely noticed. The barely noticed part is because one of them owned this huge camera and was taking pictures. And I was like "Doesn't everyone own one of these these days?" That's the barely noticed part.
What is weird about this abnormally normal story up until now is, an hour or so later, one of the men approached our table, put a napkin right in front of me and said "please don't ask any questions and read this and don't get me wrong, thank you." or something like that. I was way too baffled to actually register what he said.
Anyway, we open the napkin and here's what it says:
Isn't it just hilarious?!
So just for the fun of it, I called the hotel to ask for the room and the receptionist said he was out for the US - Russia basketball game but he informed them for my call. Talk about confidence! And I said I have no messages. But then decided to call again a couple of minutes ago and give my name and number. Curiosity kills the cat! I have no intention, I barely remember the face but I'm just wondering what he has to say. That's about it.
That doesn't make me a necessarily bad person now, does it? All for the fun of it!
Back!
So I have been MIA since my surprise. I've been just overwhelmed with work, as it always is before every single holiday of mine.
And the surprise was back as told before, and he was back for good. What I mean is, he decided to come and visit me and we ended up having this amazing short holiday in Bodrum with my friends. It was a lot of fun.
Why am I writing this like a 10 year old's diary I have absolutely no idea.
I don't really feel the need to talk and talk and analyse.. I just want to live and I DO live. I just take the moment and try to make the best of it. Don't want to dwell about future, don't want to overthink everything. I just want to give it a chance and see where it will take us. You never know what happens. Life is just too unpredictable and almost never goes according to your plans. I'm happy and I want to enjoy my life.
And he makes me smile!
And the surprise was back as told before, and he was back for good. What I mean is, he decided to come and visit me and we ended up having this amazing short holiday in Bodrum with my friends. It was a lot of fun.
Why am I writing this like a 10 year old's diary I have absolutely no idea.
I don't really feel the need to talk and talk and analyse.. I just want to live and I DO live. I just take the moment and try to make the best of it. Don't want to dwell about future, don't want to overthink everything. I just want to give it a chance and see where it will take us. You never know what happens. Life is just too unpredictable and almost never goes according to your plans. I'm happy and I want to enjoy my life.
And he makes me smile!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
My surprise is back!
It always happens at the very unexpected moment.
The one thing you've been waiting for, the one thing you've been wishing for, the one thing that you've been thinking of every single day and night happens. It happens when you least expect it.
It hits you out of nowhere, it knocks the breath out of you, you start to stutter, the words tumble in your mouth, can't fully become a sentence, your heart beats so rapid, your head starts spinning, your hands start shaking. You want to pee. Your lungs feel like exploding. Your body demonstrates every possible physical reaction. Simply, your whole world turns upside down.
It always happens at the least expected moment. But it always makes you happy. And it never seizes to surprise you.
And it always happens when you have geniunely started to consider letting go.
The one thing you've been waiting for, the one thing you've been wishing for, the one thing that you've been thinking of every single day and night happens. It happens when you least expect it.
It hits you out of nowhere, it knocks the breath out of you, you start to stutter, the words tumble in your mouth, can't fully become a sentence, your heart beats so rapid, your head starts spinning, your hands start shaking. You want to pee. Your lungs feel like exploding. Your body demonstrates every possible physical reaction. Simply, your whole world turns upside down.
It always happens at the least expected moment. But it always makes you happy. And it never seizes to surprise you.
And it always happens when you have geniunely started to consider letting go.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Statistics.
Two of my ex boyfriends got married in the past two years. The ones that I knew and heard of. One, very expected considering his nature. The second, highly unexpected considering his past.
I'm really happy for the second, though he had given his share of grief to me in the brief period we've dated. I always knew he never meant bad deep down. And he totally deserves it. I hope he'll have a lovely marriage. (Can lovely be used as an adjective to describe a marriage?)
The first one however, nah, not that happy for him. Not saying he didn't deserved it, not saying he was bad (more likely I was bad for him). But I think(and I guess I always will) that he just jumped into it just to get married. Not an action I can ever approve. I can maybe but just maybe, envy him, just slightly. Tiny tiny bit. And yes, he had proposed to me but I was 19 for Christ sake, of course I didn't take him seriously. Oh wait, he did propose once more when I was 21. Yet here I am at 25, but I'll still think it twice before I would say yes (that is of course, if I was really really deeply madly truly in love with him). Which I wasn't. I liked him a lot though.
P.S. The first and second by any means do NOT connotes them being my first and second boyfriend. Per contra, they are labeled on their chronological order of appearance in my life as well as the latest news I've got from them.
I'm really happy for the second, though he had given his share of grief to me in the brief period we've dated. I always knew he never meant bad deep down. And he totally deserves it. I hope he'll have a lovely marriage. (Can lovely be used as an adjective to describe a marriage?)
The first one however, nah, not that happy for him. Not saying he didn't deserved it, not saying he was bad (more likely I was bad for him). But I think(and I guess I always will) that he just jumped into it just to get married. Not an action I can ever approve. I can maybe but just maybe, envy him, just slightly. Tiny tiny bit. And yes, he had proposed to me but I was 19 for Christ sake, of course I didn't take him seriously. Oh wait, he did propose once more when I was 21. Yet here I am at 25, but I'll still think it twice before I would say yes (that is of course, if I was really really deeply madly truly in love with him). Which I wasn't. I liked him a lot though.
P.S. The first and second by any means do NOT connotes them being my first and second boyfriend. Per contra, they are labeled on their chronological order of appearance in my life as well as the latest news I've got from them.
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